HAiis .. its reali hard to balance xx + xx larx .. i noe tt wad i do will nt be a good decision .. bt i reali duno wad to do larx .. haiis .. reali confuse .. seems lyk evriting i do cnt be correct .. i noe is my fault .. bt duno wad 2 sae to u .. scared i sae e rong ting .. reali sry ar .. and .. haiis .. EvritingJuzHTooF .. and one ting to sae .. dunbetoogdtome ..

I noe i shld be listenin to wad u all sae .. bt .. haiis .. seeing x so lyk .. aiya duno hw 2 sae .. i juz cnt press down all those words .. haiis .. i noe i m stupid and softhearted .. haiis .. bt i reali duno wad to do le .. i nid a rest .. sry to spoil yr dae ..

'feels lyk killin myself and ending it nw .. will i regret? Or lockin myself up again and only appear whn im ready for it .. e lesser i tok .. e lesser posibilities tt i will get into trouble? MAybe i will feel happier dere .. wish i cn slp foreva and neva wakeup again ..